Friday, February 4, 2011

Undignified

Music is in my blood... my life is filled with it.  My whole family lives for it... my mom and dad and their siblings all sing and play the piano and/or one other instrument (guitar, violin, sax...you name it).  I've played the piano since I was 5...grew up singing Broadway songs thanks to my mom, learned to play the guitar and even at one point, the accordion (!), and throughout my whole college life participated and performed on stage in a choir.  After graduating, I later found
my fulfillment (and calling, I believe) of serving God through music by teaching in Kids Church and being in a worship team at our church, where I met and became good friends with our team's drummer/guitarist/lead singer a.k.a as the Muffin Man.

However, these last 10 months (more or less) must have been the longest I've probably gone without singing or touching a piano or keyboard, or even a guitar (even if we have two at home!)  Except for singing fragments of songs from my iTunes every now and then, and a few Broadway-themed get togethers with my friends...I found myself suddenly missing what made me ME.  I missed choir rehearsals, band practices, playing the piano for hours because I lost track of time...or even just singing for my family at holiday gatherings (something I haven't done in months!).

Today I attempted to sing one of my favorite worship songs to the Muffin Baby as he settled to nap... a simple song I knew I could sing in my sleep ...and I was tongue-tied for a few minutes, I couldn't remember the lyrics!  I tried jumping to chorus...and I was messing up the words and even part of the melody...whaaaat!  Teri would have my head!  I found myself getting teary-eyed out of frustration.  Finally I just started humming...eventually I found the words, and soon I was singing out to my heart's content.  As one of our worship leaders once said... "undignified worship" ... just like King David in 2 Samuel 6:14 when he danced unabashedly ... not caring who was listening, or if I was in tune or if the lyrics were in the right order.  Just singing in praise and worship out of thankfulness to God.  Even when there are days frustration sets in because  I feel I am still physically unable to do all the things I want to do... as I sang these simple words with an even simpler melody... I couldn't deny the overwhelming gratitude in my heart for who God is in my life, and I got teary-eyed again, thankful for this gift of music that served as a reminder of His blessings.

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Amazed
by Lincoln Brewster 

(verse 1)
You dance over me while I am unaware
You sing all around but I never hear the sound

(chorus)
Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
And how You love me

(verse 2)
You paint the morning sky with miracles in mind
My hope will always stand
For You hold me in Your hand

(bridge)
How deep how wide
How great is Your love for me

4 comments:

Anson Yu said...

Sweet!

AdrienneAntoinette said...

Hi Diane!!! Enjoy this season, my friend! For sure you'll be back in the game in no time, sharing music with everyone and of course, your little muffin man! God bless and I do hope to catch up with you soon! Nothing like parenthood/motherhood, eh? :) Hugs hugs hugs!

Randee and Peegee said...

Ooooo, I think this is the perfect season to write songs! :)

mrs muffinman said...

anson, if you mean Raph's picture..yes, he is, isn't he? :D

adjeng, yeah, all in good time! can't wait to catch yup with you!

randz, haha, something i've always wanted to try but i don't think i'd be very good at it =P i DO want to get back to painting and illustrating tho, hehe!

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